Hope you are looking forward to our final poll and quizzes as I am :D
Season 5 here we come!
"Carry On Wayward Son" by Kansas
(plays during "The Road So Far" recap of events; also played in 1.21 Salvation, 2.22 All Hell Breaks Loose: Part Two and 3.16 No Rest for the Wicked)
"Patty Cake" by Juliana Wimbles(sung by Cindy McLellan)
We start with Azazel possessing a priest, killing all the nuns. It is later, after Sam's torture scene with the nurse demon, that we find out Azazel got a personal message from Lucifer encaged underneath. Lucifer tells Azazel that only Lilith can break the seals but a special boy is needed for the cause. This is 1972 (11 years before Sam was born - May 2, 1983). So we can assume that Azazel went around making deals with moms for a year before finding Mary.
One nun (maybe it was the same that Lucifer made talk for him later) knew exactly what was going on. You can see a tear roll down her face and she is praying frantically as Azazel talks.
Cut to Sam and Ruby by a teeny yellow car. Sam is "brooding" according to SuperWiki. He looks like he's trying to convince himself he is doing the right thing. Ruby senses this I'm sure. She is worried that Sam is not committed quite yet. She tells him that Dean should not have said what he said.
SAM:No, he was right to say it. I mean, I don't blame him after what I did.
She suggests they can patch things up when it is all finished but after drinking a load of demon blood Sam feels so much evil inside of him that he feels there is no going back. He also feels that he is dangerous and wants Dean to be as far away from him as possible so that he doesn't get hurt. This scene moved me especially after watching the first couple of episodes of Season 10. Very similar feels.
SAM:I can feel it inside me, Ruby. I've changed... for good. And there's no going back now.
SAM:Look, I know what I gotta do. It's okay, I'm just saying, Dean's better off as far away from me as possible. Anyways. Doesn't matter, let's just get this done with.
He also believes that he is doing this for the good of human kind and he is prepared to sacrifice his life for the cause as he told his mom in the hallucination last ep.
Next we have Dean and Bobby. Bobby is trying to convince Dean that he should not give up on Sam. But Dean is devastated. It's Sam leaving him to go off to college all over again. After rewatching this scene I understood a bit more why he had said those words at the end of last episode. It was exactly because he was remembering that day. The pain he went through believing that Sam did not care about him. And now it's the same thing all over again.
DEAN:No, damnit! No. I gotta face the facts. Sam never wanted part of this family. He hated this life growing up. Ran away to Stanford first chance he got. Now it's like déjà vu all over again. Well, I am sick and tired of chasing him. Screw him, he can do what he wants.
BOBBY: You don't mean that.
DEAN: Yes I do, Bobby. Sam's gone. He's gone. I'm not even sure if he's still my brother anymore. If he ever was.
The line - "I'm sick and tired of chasing him" makes me remember how Dean went to find Sam in the pilot. How all through Season 1 he tried to convince Sam to stay with him. He's always felt this to be a bit of a struggle aye? And now that Sam's left him again, it's just hard to try again.
I've focused more on Bobby's little speech in the past but this time, I was moved by Dean's despair more and felt close to tears. These two scenes - Sam feeling the evil, wanting Dean to be safe and wanting to do the right thing, Dean feeling abandoned and unloved are what I based my banner on for the poll. But of course Bobby's speech is also important because it wakes Dean up to the fact that can't just let Sam go darkside.
BOBBY:You stupid, stupid son of a bitch! Well, boo hoo, I am so sorry your feelings are hurt, princess! Are you under the impression that family's supposed to make you feel good?! Make you an apple pie, maybe? They're supposed to make you miserable! That's why they're family!
BOBBY:You sound like a whiny brat. No, you sound like your dad. Well, let me tell you something. Your dad was a coward.
DEAN:My dad was a lot of things, Bobby, but a coward?
BOBBY:He'd rather push Sam away than reach out to him. Well, that don't strike me as brave. You are a better man than your daddy ever was. So you do both of us a favor. Don't be him.
I do have some problems with Bobby's interpretation of what happened between Sam and John and whether John really pushed Sam away or not, but in any case the speech makes Dean think. While he is turning away toward the window to think though, he is suddenly transported to the "waiting room" so that when he turns around he is no longer with Bobby.
We will never know how Bobby reacted to this. He may have thought, "Huh, I guess the angels took him. Nothing I can do now." Or, he could have gone crazy with worry. Dean spends some time looking at the various room fixtures while Cas comes to tell him "it's almost time" and just disappears on him again(I'm not sure of the reason for this appearance).
We have a scene of our demon gourmet chef, taking a baby for Lilith and getting caught by Sam and Ruby.
SAM:So. We need to talk.
(I love the way they use those shots of Sam coming in through the side. They did it in On the Head of a Pin, and also do it in a later scene here.)
Then back to Dean. When Dean turns around toward the table he finds that the previously empty bowls are full of those hamburgers from his childhood memory of a seaside shack in Delaware and his favorite beer. Zach arrives with Cas.
Cas is in the back, the good little soldier, silent. Dean tries to get answers but Zach is being hedgy.
DEAN:What, in you? Give me one good reason why I should.
ZACHARIAH:Because you swore your obedience. So obey.
Sam is torturing the "chef" for information.
And Dean is fingering his cellphone. Does this remind you of scarecrow?! He finally decides, to heck with it, and dials Sam.
DEAN:Hey, it's me. Uh...Look, I'll just get right to it. I'm still pissed... and I owe you a serious beatdown. But... I shouldn't have said what I said. You know, I'm not Dad. We're brothers. You know, we're family. And, uh... no matter how bad it gets, that doesn't change. Sammy, I'm sorry.
Sam finally gets the information he needs by promising to kill the demon if she talks. Ruby is of course not happy with that. When he gets ready to carry through, she stops him because he needs more blood to kill Lilith. The demon does something no other demon was smart enough to do (or maybe none actually had a live person). She lets the human woman take the reins, knowing that Sam would be bothered by this.
Ruby also knows that she is in a bit of trouble now. Sam is not evil - despite all the evil blood in him - which is very important to remember. He is drinking the blood because he thinks he is saving the world (maybe due to his addiction) and he feels that killing an innocent human is not good. Of course he had conveniently forgotten until now that every time he drank the blood of a demon-human, he was actually drinking the human as well. This reminds him.
We have the Azazel scene I mentioned here (so now we know Sam is the special boy and he has something to do with getting Lucifer out of the cage...)- then back to Sam.
Sam is doing research while Ruby looks like she is packing. Sam has found out about the murder in '71 and who did it. Ruby makes a demon joke -
RUBY:What's black and white and red all over?
SAM:That's not funny.
And we have a wonderful demon smirk by Ruby. Love how evil she is!
Before they leave, Sam shows how uncomfortable he is with the idea of bleeding a human being and suggests they find another demon. Ruby reminds him he's done it before, what's the difference. Sam doesn't like it as he struggles to get Cindy the girl into the trunk of the car. He is definitely having second thoughts.
Dean is getting quite frustrated and feeling the urgency of finding Sam. A message doesn't seem to be enough. He feels he needs to make things right with Sam - possibly because he thinks he is going to be fighting Lilith soon. He calls Cas. I guess it takes a while for Cas to arrive and Dean starts destroying the art pieces as he waits.
Cas won't take him to see Sam (anywhere but there) and he shows Dean that he is basically trapped with no way out.
Back to Sam. He is in the car with Ruby with his second thoughts. We hear Cindy screaming for help and it is obviously really bothering him. He also has a message from Dean on the phone and he is wondering if he should listen to it or not.
Now my theory here is that either Ruby changed the message here or she knows that it has been changed.
RUBY:What are you -- a 12-year-old girl? Just play it already.
SAM:Mind your own business.
We can tell she knows because of the way she reacts later while Sam is listening to the message without actually hearing it herself. And since it is unlikely she has contact with angels, she may have changed it herself. But then we have that cryptic line by Zach later about fixing things a bit to cement Sam's resolve so I really don't know. Anyway, knowing about the changed message, she urges him here to listen to it. She wants Sam fully on board and she thinks this is the way she can get that. Unfortunately for her, Sam refuses and instead wonders outloud if Dean might have been right... about everything.
Dean is trying to break his way out of the room when Zach appears again. He finally tells Dean that he is not going to kill Lilith.
ZACHARIAH:Lilith's going to break the final seal. Fait accompli at this point. Train's left the station.
DEAN:But me and Sam, we can stop... You don't want to stop it, do you?
ZACHARIAH:Nope. Never did. The end is nigh. The apocalypse is coming, kiddo, to a theater near you.
When Dean asks about Sam, Zach tells him rather cryptically that Sam has a part to play.
DEAN:What about Sam? He won't go quietly. He'll stop Lilith.
ZACHARIAH:Sam... has a part to play. A very important part. He may need a little nudging in the right direction, but I'll make sure he plays it.
There it is. Do you think Zach was in contact with Ruby?? That they actually worked together on this?
ZACHARIAH:Sam, Sam, Sam. Marcia, Marcia, Marcia. Forget about him, would you? You have larger concerns. Why do you think I'm confiding in you? You're still vital, Dean. We weren't lying about your destiny. Just... omitted a few pertinent details. But nothing's changed. You are chosen. You will stop it. Just... not Lilith, or the apocalypse. That's all.
ZACHARIAH: Lucifer. You're going to stop Lucifer. You're our own little Russell Crowe, complete with surly attitude. And when it's over... and when you've won... your rewards will be... unimaginable. Peace, happiness... two virgins and seventy sluts. Trust me -- one day, we'll look back on this and laugh.
DEAN:Tell me something. Where's God in all this?
ZACHARIAH:God? God has left the building.
DunDun. Dean (and we?) find out for the first time that God is not calling the shots at all.
Next is Lilith, coming to the church to prepare for the "orgy."
Then back to Dean. He is trying to call Sam but his phone doesn't work this time. I guess the angels had to make sure he wouldn't get a hold of Sam and ruin their work. Cas has come back to apologize for it having to end this way and Dean's not taking it.
Dean punches Cas and Cas' head turns to the side like some robot. Obviously he doesn't feel a thing. But Dean's fist is killing him. Rather cute scene.
It's Armageddon, Cas. You need a bigger word than "sorry."
CASTIEL:Try to understand -- this is long foretold. This is your...
DEAN:Destiny? Don't give me that "holy" crap. Destiny, God's plan... It's all a bunch of lies, you poor, stupid son of a bitch! It's just a way for your bosses to keep me and keep you in line! You know what's real? People, families -- that's real. And you're gonna watch them all burn?
Such an important bit by Dean here. There's been a lot of references to destiny in the past seasons. Starting with Sam's destiny with regard to demons - I especially remember them in the car after Hunted, "I don't believe in that destiny crap" "you mean you don't believe in my destiny." and recently in It's a Terrible Life, "it feels like I should be doing something else. There's just something in my blood. Like I was destined for something different." "Don't believe in destiny. I do believe in dealing with what's right in front of us, though." And of course Bad Day: "It's God, Creedy. He led us here for one reason. To do His work. This ... is destiny." "Nope, just a rabbit's foot" Hehe!
He almost gives in - to destiny - in Season 5. And I guess you could say he almost does at the start of this ep as well. But his love for Sam, his only living family is enough to get him back in the game.
CASTIEL:What is so worth saving? I see nothing but pain here. I see inside you. I see your guilt, your anger, confusion. In paradise, all is forgiven. You'll be at peace. Even with Sam.
Considering that Cas had been willing to help Dean stop it before, I feel like this argument is something that the higher-up angels gave him. It sort of reminds me of Dean's conversation with Anna too. Except at that time Dean was envious of the angels for not having pain, guilt, anger, confusion. It was Anna that said it was still worth it.
DEAN:You can take your peace... and shove it up your lily-white ass. 'Cause I'll take the pain and the guilt. I'll even take Sam as is. It's a lot better than being some Stepford bitch in paradise. This is simple, Cas! No more crap about being a good soldier. There is a right and there is a wrong here, and you know it. Look at me!
You know it! You were gonna help me once, weren't you? You were gonna warn me about all this, before they dragged you back to Bible camp. Help me -- now. Please.
CASTIEL:What would you have me do?
DEAN:Get me to Sam. We can stop this before it's too late.
CASTIEL:I do that, we will all be hunted. We'll all be killed.
DEAN:If there is anything worth dying for... this is it.
Cas is torn. It seems he still has those feelings of doubt. They had just been suppressed. But, going against the angels would mean certain death and Cas has to make his choice. It's too much for him here. He shakes his head and Dean dismisses him. This is very similar to the Dean/Bobby scene isn't it? They have to keep trying, fighting against destiny and that this is worth dying for.
Sam is on his way to the convent. They've stopped at the sign, possibly to drink the demon/Cindy's blood. He is full of doubt. Here he is prepared to listen to Dean. To turn back. He opens his phone and listens to the message.
DEAN'S VOICE:Listen to me, you bloodsucking freak. Dad always said I'd either have to save you or kill you. Well, I'm giving you fair warning. I'm done trying to save you. You're a monster, Sam -- a vampire. You're not you anymore. And there's no going back.
And Ruby smirks behind him. Finally he has heard the message that will bring him over to her completely. There is speculation as to whether Sam actually found out that this message was fake or not. It think it is very possible that Sam and Dean talk about this later. Dean would have told Sam about what happened to him in the room and Sam would have been curious as to why Dean - who in the message said he was going to kill Sam because he was a monster - would have come to help him at the end.
At this point though, the message makes Sam harden his resolve and ask Ruby to get "Cindy" ready for consumption.
Dean is getting hungry as well, and being unable to get out, he takes a hamburger for a bite. Suddenly Cas is behind him. He flings him to the wall, putting his hand over Dean's mouth until Dean nods that he won't make a sound.
Then he cuts his own arm and starts making the sigil to blow Zach away. Zach notices something strange right away and is there a moment later. But it's too late. He's gone. Cas then tells Dean that he doesn't know where Sam is, but he knows who does and zaps them both to Chuck.
Chuck, poor guy, is calling a call girl service for some fun before the end of the world. But we know from Season 5 that he didn't have the whole rest of the story in his "prophesy." He had probably left Dean at the waiting room, and written about Sam's eyes turning black and killing Lilith and possibly opening the cage but that had been it. So he is very surprised to see Dean and Cas. As they talk, the archangel(s) notice what is happening and start their attack -the prophet is not in danger but their plan is.
CASTIEL:It's the Archangel! I'll hold him off! I'll hold them all off! Just stop Sam!
Cas zaps Dean to Sam and stays with Chuck to foil the angels. He must have been prepared for this all along. It is an incredibly moving moment as they stand there together. Chuck as God - feels proud of Cas here I think. He is proud of this one angel that dares to doubt and even give his life for the humans in his charge. The hand he puts on Cas' shoulder ... does this sound strange?... it just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. Cas is surprised by it and he looks at Chuck. Chuck/God draws his hand away apologetically like a father scorned by a son and feeling his own inadequacies.
Back to Dean and Sam. Dean is in that hall of the convent. He sees Sam facing the alter with Ruby beside him. Ruby turns around and sees him, smirks and slams the door shut.
Dean is pounding on the door, calling to Sam. Sam stops when he hears Dean, but we can hear his heartbeat as it must have sounded to him, booming loudly as Ruby shouts at him to hurry up and kill Lilith. Lilith realizes what is happening and she purposefully seals her fate. She came here knowing she was going to die for Lucifer to begin with. She laughs at Sam.
LILITH:You turned yourself into a freak. A monster. And now you're not gonna bite? I'm sorry, but that is honestly adorable.
A freak, a monster - always those words trigger something in Sam because he feels it too and he hates it so much. It reminds me of the moment in AfterSchool Special as much as Dean's words in the last episode. I talked about Sam's anger management issues in ASS, how he seemed to be able to manage it plenty. That was obviously not the issue. It was all about how he felt the freak because of the demon blood. Here again, those words trigger Sam's anger and his eyes turn black as he kills her dead.
Then Ruby and Sam see something strange.
The blood from Lilith's mouth starts winding its way around the room to make a big circle - a door to Lucifer's cage. Sam is bewildered and Ruby is delighted (and we have that side entrance of both of them as they watch the blood flow. Ruby finally tells Sam the truth.
RUBY:You opened the door. And now he's free at last. He's free at last!
SAM:No, no, no. No, he -- Lilith -- I stopped her. I killed her!
RUBY:And it is written that the first demon shall be the last seal. And you bust her open.
Now guess who's coming to dinner.
SAM:Oh, my god.
Ruby is full of herself. Elated. Finally after those years of preparation, manipulation, Sam has fulfilled his "destiny."
Sam tries to kill Ruby with his power, but it's all gone. Depleted from killing Lilith.
SAM:The blood... You poisoned me.
RUBY:No. It wasn't the blood. It was you... and your choices. I just gave you the options, and you chose the right path every time. You didn't need the feather to fly, you had it in you the whole time, Dumbo! I know it's hard to see it now... but this is a miracle. So long coming. Everything Azazel did, and Lilith did. Just to get you here. And you were the only one who could do it.
So this is interesting. It's almost like she's saying that he could have killed Lilith without the blood, but then the later episodes with Pestilence and Lucifer don't really make sense if that is true... do they? Is she maybe saying that the blood didn't make him decide to kill Lilith? Poison him like he said into making the wrong choices? This reminds me actually of what Sam said way back in Simon Said. "Right circumstances, everyone's capable of murder. Everyone. You know, maybe that's what the demon's doing. Pushing us. Finding ways to break us."
SAM:Why? W-why me?
Sam's without the strength to even stand. And Ruby comes up to him and almost seems to comfort him.
I don't know how Dean breaks in finally. Maybe Ruby releases her hold on the doors. Dean barges in and comes straight for her, stabbing the knife straight into her stomach and twisting it for good measure.
Sam wakes from his stupor to help Dean by holding Ruby in place. As she falls to the ground, Sam looks at Dean -
Dean makes the most interesting face here. It is not sad or mad, maybe a bit of horrified, but still it is him and Sam against the world. He tells Sam they should go as the light starts pouring out of the gate but Sam can't tear his eyes away from what is happening before him. It's like he is fascinated by it.
Then they are consumed by light - just as Cas and Chuck were before them. And on a first watch we don't really know what happened until season 5 when we find out that God has zapped them to safety. Do you think God would have done this if Sam had been on his own there at the convent? If we think of Chuck as God, then the answer to me is no. If Chuck had not experienced first hand the actions by Cas and Dean, he would very probably have let destiny fall in place. And what would that have been. Would Sam have said yes to Lucifer right away out of despair from being rejected by his brother? I can very much see Lucifer convincing Sam some way or other. And Dean, if Cas had not helped him get to Sam at the expense to his life... would he have said yes to Michael right away? He may have if he knew that Sam had given in...The world might have ended quite soon after. Or he could have become the soldier he was in The End and the world may have been taken over by Lucifer. Very interesting to contemplate.